Nah, not hopeless, Connor. Hopeless is kinda... I don't know.
[He shifts against the wall, looking down, his hair falling over his face.]
It's stupid, I know it is, but I can't- I can't handle this like you can. I told you that. Even the stupid shit, when they tell me this shit and I, I just can't- If this felt more like I was dreaming I think I could handle it. But it- the whole-
[Talking about it's harder when Connor's right here, looking at him. Connor knows about it, says he found him passed out on the floor afterward, even, but it's still hard.]
It'd make it make sense, you know? If I was just done, that'd make all this make sense. I don't know why you're tryin so hard to prove me wrong but- fuck, does it matter? I'll remember how to get my ass up and perform tomorrow, and the day after that, and whenever you wanna make bff bracelets and investigate shit I'll be there and, shit, does it really matter what I'm thinkin while I'm doin it?
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[He shifts against the wall, looking down, his hair falling over his face.]
It's stupid, I know it is, but I can't- I can't handle this like you can. I told you that. Even the stupid shit, when they tell me this shit and I, I just can't- If this felt more like I was dreaming I think I could handle it. But it- the whole-
[Talking about it's harder when Connor's right here, looking at him. Connor knows about it, says he found him passed out on the floor afterward, even, but it's still hard.]
It'd make it make sense, you know? If I was just done, that'd make all this make sense. I don't know why you're tryin so hard to prove me wrong but- fuck, does it matter? I'll remember how to get my ass up and perform tomorrow, and the day after that, and whenever you wanna make bff bracelets and investigate shit I'll be there and, shit, does it really matter what I'm thinkin while I'm doin it?